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Will I know you? I pray that when I return, my eyes are not so blind that I do not truly see what is there for me. I pray that my heart is not so tarnished from lifetimes of pain that I have forgotten what it was like to feel 'free'. I pray that I can still listen to the music of my Soul and that the only thing I recognize, admist the hurried states of 'me' is that I still know love. I still know you.

2.1.06 03:38

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Relationships: A New Business Model Has a paradigm shift occurred within our approach to relationships? Can traditional values still exist and be enough sustenance for a 'forever and ever till death do we part' model? OR Do we need to look towards the emerging trends in business as foundation for a stronger, productive and less risk 'partnership'. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In order for a business to survive, (in its most simplest of terms) the revenue has to be more than its operating costs. In other words, what you GET should be more than what you GIVE. That is fundamentally how all successful business survive. Most successul businesses survive longer than marriages. With that said, should we then approach relationships as GETTING MORE than we SHOULD GIVE?? That doesn't sound right, but it works for businesses. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I had this very conversation with a friend the other day. He had brought it to my atttention that perhaps we need to run our relationships using successful business models. We analyzed the approach and agreed that the KEY was to acquire MORE money than one spent. We also agreed that relationships are very much like business mergers in that two individuals decide to join together to form a partnership, each coming in with a set of assets to be protected. The discussion was rather interesting but the one factor that was not even remotely equal was that of money and love. MONEY was not the same as LOVE. You cannot expect to get MORE LOVE if you hold back GIVING LOVE. In relationships that are worth investing in, you find greater satisfaction when you OPEN your HEART and not be afraid to RISK getting hurt. The greater the RISK, the greater the loss. You cannot apply this in business. Any CEO/CFO knows this. There are risks involved and risks that need to be taken .. but these are calculated. Still, even though this was brought up in the conversation, we allowed ourselves to step back and view the emerging trends of the NOW generation and concluded that because we have become accustomed to learning and teaching and living in the knowledge of these business models, we have somehow adopted this approach towards relationships, where we fear the LOSS and want/expect MORE GAIN. Alas, we are a society based on fear - a self imposed obstacle to achieving TRUE happiness, TRUE freedom and most of all experiencing the TRUTH that lies in LOVING. Let me wander this lifetime not with the riches of that which is valued most but that which is seemingly difficult to achieve, until we all look inwards and realize that we already HAVE all that we NEED. I'd rather be poor with a well worn out heart, than to be monetarily rich with a heart that does not know what it means to LOVE.

10.1.06 08:55

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The Absolute Wonder of Uncertainty ... Deep in the Silence of our Being there is one question we all ask. But to whom do we pose it to? It is born out of a LONGING for something more, something that we FEEL exists, and for someone that we've waited for, to meet again. Many of us go thru life just simply going thru life. Some of us forget the question and other's simply decide to no longer waste their time. But the question still lies within. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have never stopped asking the question. I throw it out to the Universe - for IT knows the answer. Then silently, and ever so still, the answer emerges like the warm glow of a sunrise that spreads its rays on the earth, kissing the soul that is asleep .... "Awaken!" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Love comes in many forms. In the many ways that we've learned to recognize it, to live with it .. and to share it with others. But when LOVE comes for YOU, it is different. When it comes as THE Answer, it engulfs your 'being' and nourishes your cells and your every breath is that of IT. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have stopped asking the question. I now just wonder at my uncertainty. Uncertainty. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Last night at work I met Celia. She has a great story to tell. It is the kind of Lost Love at 16 and finding one another again at 57. They will finally marry. I am happy for Celia and Harry. Their LOVE transcended thru time. I sat with her at the bedside, her hand in mine the whole while she told her tale. I then told her of the 'answer' that came to me in the form of him. But I still wanted to leave a bit of doubt and uncertaintly .. just as a safety net. Celia told me to pray and ask God for a sign. If I was still unsure then He would give me a sign. Later on that night I went downstairs to a quiet place in the hospital and prayed. I asked for a sign and some other stuff. When I got back to the unit, two other nurses were having a conversation about soul mates! One nurse said that she had two friends that knew eachother since they were children. They started dating in grade school all the way till College. These two were together for 12 years. One day she invited her girlfriend to a party. The girlfriend never really liked parties. She would just rather stay at home, read or spend time with her family. But that night, her girlfriend said yes. That night, her girlfriend met a guy, fell in love and in 5 weeks they both got married. Her boyfriend of 12 years was devastated. I asked the nurse, "But, but, is your girlfriend still with that guy now?" She said, "Yeah! And they have 3 kids and they are really happy!" "So she just fell in love like that and they got married like that? And she just left her boyfriend like that?" Maria said, "yes! and I was even so angry with her. I asked her, if she even loved her boyfriend and she said, she did, but that THIS WAS DIFFERENT." This was different. My exact words. It was a sign. And just as I acknowledged that Maria's story was a sign the phone rang at work at 3:40 am! My insides gripped me. I knew it was him. There was no way he would still be up, no way that he would even dare call again after we had gotten off earlier around 2:30 am, just no way .. but I knew it was him. It was him. It was a sign. Another sign. I asked him, " .. how come you called? Why aren't you asleep yet?" and he said, "Can I ask you something?" I said, sure. "Do you think I'll have more energy if I drink FIJI water?" I almost cried. I almost laughed. Another sign. Uncertainty? It's an absolute wonder!

11.1.06 17:25

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